"How are you doing?" my husband asked.
I frowned. I had just been thinking about how comprised I felt being 9 1/2 weeks pregnant and how it reminded me of when I used to eat gluten.
I'm not complaining. (Well, maybe a little.) I want this baby. This is a choice. I know how blessed I am to have an awesome husband, two amazing daughters and the opportunity to have one more. I do.
But now that I have experienced outrageous relief on my Paleo diet in my body, I'm a bit floored at how it feels to have a body working this hard again just to get through the day. This time it's for a good cause, but before it was just to survive the diet I was feeding it.
I'm having a revelation here.
If you have ever been pregnant, you might remember the exhaustion you felt in the first trimester.
How you just could not stay awake sometimes, even to go to a party you'd looked forward to for months. Perhaps you felt the indigestion and constipation from a digestive system that is slowing down on purpose to suck more nutrients out for the growing baby. Maybe you recall trying to put the tin foil back in the fridge like I did last week, forgetting to bring your cell phone - again - or the numerous blank looks you gave people while they were talking to you. Your brain just not all there. Not being able to sleep fully all night long. Labored breathing. Aches in places you didn't know you had.
That's pregnancy. And that is how, in retrospect, I felt on gluten, except I didn't have a 9 month cap at the end of it with a bundle of joy to reward me for my pains.
Pregnancy is hard work.
You are building another life, one that takes precedent over you. Baby needs calcium? Not getting enough in your diet? No problem, we'll suck it out of your teeth. One of my friends joked I've got a parasite. That's not too far off.
Gluten is hard work.
Your system is inflamed and before you even get out of bed you are working hard just to maintain your regular body functioning. Even if you didn't eat since yesterday, gluten stays in your system for 5-15 days. It's building it's own baby of a sorts, one that is inside of you screaming "moooooom!" and wanting more and more and more of you.
I can't believe I lived like this for 7 years with barely a break once my first pregnancy took my gluten intolerance into full tilt. (One candida-free diet between kids for 4 months was it). I can't believe I tolerated feeling like this day in and day out in my 30's, thinking that motherhood was sapping me, that age was catching up with me, and that this was just life.
I had forgotten how I was supposed to feel: utterly and amazingly awesome.
There is a light at the end of my tunnel.
One day I will birth this baby and have my abdomen back. The rest of me will return once I stop nursing. In that, I will experience incredible physical relief.
There is a light at the end of your tunnel if you don't feel awesome, and it doesn't even require a midwife or labor pains.
Stop eating gluten. Heck, even try going Paleo and get off grains and sugar and dairy if being gluten-free isn't enough. Do something to play with your diet. Anything. Find the way to eat that takes the pressure off of your body so you can experience the natural, outrageous health that is your birthright.
Do you remember that?! Do you remember what it feels like to jump out of bed feeling physically unstoppable, like a kid on summer vacation at the beach?
I do! And I'm looking forward to it again.
Now if you can eat gluten and sugar and dairy and still experience outrageous health with no allergies, headaches, backaches, joint pain, sleep issues, food cravings, mood swings, weight issues, acne, bloating, constipation, indigestion, flaky nails, brain fog, crankiness, or any of the rest...
... eat a pizza for me.
I'm pregnant and I don't feel like cooking today. :)
I like the easy Paleo stuff.